Me

I had a really interesting conversation this weekend with a friend of a friend who I met several months ago. I have spent a pretty significant amount of time with her over that time, but the strange thing is that it wasn't until recently that I began to consider her to be my friend.

That's entirely my fault, though. Because, unless a person has a certain kind of personality, it takes a long time for me to open up/feel comfortable with them.

This is important, because that's what our conversation was about. Me and my personality. We recently went on a trip to San Francisco together (with our mutual friend), and I know that it was this trip that helped me to finally feel comfortable enough to open up and be my complete self around her. It was also during this trip that she had an "Aha!" moment about me.

During the trip we had been talking about my military-fiance enemy and all of that drama. I was relaying the story and telling my friends the things that this enemy had said to me. One of the things she had said in an email was that I acted like I was better than everyone else. When I told them that, my friend Andrea said she couldn't believe that ANYONE would ever think something like that about me.

I responded that a lot of the time, people just don't get me, so I wasn't shocked that she might get that kind of impression from me.

That some people just don't "get" me was the aha moment for my (then) acquaintance and (now) friend Sue, and this is what she spoke with me about this past weekend.

She told me that when I said that it really rang true for her. She said that at first, she really didn't quite know what to make of me. But, she wanted me to know that now she really does get me.

It was a really cool conversation; because, she basically told me that she sees that I hold myself at a distance from people at first, but that she really respects that because I am not fake. When I'm ready, I open myself up to people completely, and she said, that makes it all the more special to be my friend. Because, I don't give out my friendship too quickly or easily. And, there's nothing superficial about my friendships.

After talking to her, I really felt that she DOES get me. And, some of the things that she was saying, helped me to understand myself a little bit more. I think she is definitely right. I will not pursue a superficial friendship with someone. My friendships are the real deal, which is why I don't have a thousand friends.

I only have a few. And to those few, I am fiercely loyal.

Thank you, Sue, for "getting" me, and for making me feel good about being just exactly who I am.