Contemplation

Have you ever wondered what the worst thing about having Hubby deployed is? It's having Hubby gone during the month of October... when I'm deathly afraid of Scary Movies. I remember this from last deployment, and sadly, here I am again.. my 2nd October in a row.. being subjected to the thousands of previews for scary movies that play over and over and over and over for the duration of the month! Woe is me!

But, on a more serious note... This Friday evening while getting my fill of girly shows/movies (Grey's Anatomy and The Sex in the City movie) I had some time to contemplate my situation. To be very specific.. I had some time to contemplate my situation.. and how much it sucks.

Sometimes when I sit back and REALLY THINK about it, I am amazed by myself. Amazed that I am somehow able to spend the vast majority of my time convincing myself that life is just fine and dandy. I am extremely content when I've been able to spend ten minutes chatting with Hubby online that day. I revel in a short email. It's practically Christmas when I get a phone call. And webcam time? I might as well have won the lottery!

It's better that I don't spend too much time watching sappy movies that make my heart ache. Yes, it's true, I need my Grey's fix once a week; because, seriously... the tears I shed during that show are downright therapeautic. But going around telling myself how crappy things are all the time? What good would that do me?

None.

Which is why I spend most of my time enjoying the moments I get to spend with Hubby via technology, and making light humored jokes such as "the worst thing about having Hubby gone on deployment is having him gone during the month of October". I guess I just don't know how I'd function otherwise..

By the way, did I mention the BEST thing about having Hubby gone on deployment? Full reign on the tv. Now THAT's something to get excited about.

:)