The Future?

The thing about the military is that at any given moment the only thing you can really be certain of is the present.

For example, I currently live in Southern California. That's all I really know for sure. I don't know if I will be living in Southern California a month from now. Or a year from now.

I also currently know that my husband is HOME. But, I really have no idea how long he'll be around.

Those kinds of decisions are not mine to make, which in some ways is a bit of a relief. Every now and then it feels pretty good having someone else make the decisions for you. At least, that's what I try to tell myself.

Mike returned from his 2nd deployment in February. And, though nothing is certain, all signs seem to be pointing to a return to Iraq this coming February.

You'd think I'd be all torn up about this. I suppose I should be, but the truth of the matter is that there's really no point in getting worked up over these things. Especially because it's not certain. Especially because whether I get upset and have a temper tantrum or not, if the Marine Corps says he's going to go, he's going to go. Simple as that.

So, I just go with the flow.

This possible deployment is throwing a big wrench into all of my baby making plans. But, I suppose I have to remember that phrase, "best laid plans" (not sure how it ends, but I get the gist of it) and realize that no matter how much I plan for perfect timing of these things... in the end things will happen how they're meant to happen.

What does the future hold for us? Only time will tell.