I am currently heartbroken.
No, not over my husband.... over my 2 and a half year old nephew.
When I am around him, there's no better description than to say he breaks my heart.
I don't know if I can have kids; because, I don't know if I can handle loving someone so much that my heart feels like it's going to explode.
I don't know if I can handle watching my child being ignored by the older kids on the playground, missing me when I walk out the door, growing up in THIS world.
I mean, I have serious turmoil and heartache about putting my dogs in the kennel for a week. I worry about them when I'm at work. Now.. imagine me with a kid?
Today I babysat my nephew all day (a first) by myself. And, I think I realized that I am going to be one of those hovering, worried-all-the-time parents.
But, I will also laugh and smile more than I probably ever have. And.. my heart will break a thousand times over.
That's just how it will be.
1 comment:
He's so lucky to have you as an awesome aunt and your future kids will be lucky to have you, too!
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