Scary

If you look at the last date that I posted a blog, you'll notice that it's been 20 days since I last wrote. And, it wasn't for lack of having anything to say. Believe me, it was just the opposite. It was having too much to say and not quite knowing how to say it.

You see, last week while not feeling so great my sister went to the doctor. The doctor took a blood test and when the results came back the next day called and told her to go to the nearest emergency IMMEDIATELY. Her platelets, it seems, were so low that even a small cut could have caused her to bleed to death. That's scary. But, what's scarier was that upon further examination they noticed abnormal lymph nodes.

I will probably never look at the movie The Kite Runner quite the same ever again, because last week as I was hunkering down excitedly to watch that movie on my ON DEMAND service, my mom called. She was having some trouble getting her words out, but finally was able to tell me that my sister would be having her lymph nodes and bone marrow biopsied to check for cancer.

My brother was sick with the flu, and not knowing that anything peculiar was going on was not answering my mother's phone calls. So, she asked me to call him and tell him what was going on.

It wasn't the first time I had to be the bearer of bad news for my brother. When my dad's mom died we were home alone, and I was the one to inform my brother. When my grandfather was slated with only a short time to live with his leukemia.. I was the one who told my brother. And last week, once again, I was giving my brother news that was less than easy to swallow.

Before I hung up with my brother after telling him what was going on with our sister.. he ended the conversation with an "I love you" --

And, to be quite honest with you, if I hadn't realized something was terribly wrong before that phone call.. after his I love you, I knew for certainty this was something to be worried about.

It was awful spending those few days thinking that something terrible might be wrong with my sister. It was hard being across the country and not being able to visit. It definitely made me realize how very much I love and appreciate her...

So, when the news came back All Clear, NO CANCER! You can imagine the relief. I don't know why my sister had to go through this terrible experience. But, I do know that it will be something that she will not soon forget. And, I.... well, I will never forget how it felt for those moments thinking that my sister might be terribly sick. Let's just say.. maybe I will be remembering her birthday from now on. :O)

I'm glad you're feeling better, Aim! :) Love you!