happy and sad

Right now I am very happy and very sad at the same time. I did the inevitable today and actually glanced at a calendar. It was one of the scariest things I've ever forced myself to do.. especially when I realized that time with hubby is numbered to less than two weeks now.

I'm starting to feel a little bit like the person I was last March when he left for his first deployment....you know.. the person who is so overwhelmed with what's going on that life begins to feel a bit like a fog.. and the fact that I'm still functioning as a normal human is somewhat of a miracle.

But.. I'm happy. Hubby and I have been spending some great quality time together lately.. we're happier than ever...Life is good! Well, life is GREAT except for the fact that in less than two weeks I will be suffering through my own form of self-torture (aka DEPLOYMENT).

hmm.

This Saturday we finally took our jet ski out.. and.. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN that we went back again on Sunday! We found this GREAT lake about 30 minutes away from our house that allows jetskis on the weekends. The lake was HUGE with tons of little beach areas all around that you can beach on and hang out on between jetskiing. Both times we went we took some buddies along with us.. our jetski only holds two but we have the coolest raft for two that the jetski drags behind. Riding the raft was a mixture of the most fun you've ever had AND fearing for your life as you bounce around the lake. The best thing, in my opinion, was beaching on the side of the lake and laying on the raft. Pure heaven on earth.

Tomorrow we will probably go to Disneyland and finally make use of the tickets my students gave me for an end-of-the-year present.

Hmm.. So, can you understand how I say that right now I am So very happy and so very sad at the same time? On the bright side, though.. happy and sad together sure beats the hell out of sad all on its own. :)