Wake Up Call!

I really hate to say it, but I might be turning into one of those people that I hated in high school. You know, the ones who freaked out before every test and cried about how they were going to fail. And then, of course, they would get an A and act shocked about it. Those people made me want to puke.

And, I'm afraid.. I might be one of those people.. only worse. I might be one of those people in my WORKING world.

You see, my Fine Arts Performance today was a HIT. I was actually embarassed by the compliments that were being sent my way by fellow teachers. Their compliments made me reevaulate the performance; because, truthfully... I didn't think it was very good. And, anyone who knows me will tell you I'm not a perfectionist. So, something just isn't adding up here.

After today, the only thing that I know for sure is that I am going to have to come to grips with the idea that I might be one of those "I'M GOING TO FAIL" people that I rolled my eyes at in high school. *shudder*

Is it possible that those people truly believed that they would fail? I mean, I always knew they were full of shit and that they'd pass with flying colors. I assumed they knew the same but were putting on some big show for attention. But, with my recent experiences, I am beginning to think that maybe they really DID believe they would fail. Just like I REALLY DID believe my performances were going to flop BIG TIME.

Crazy.