Love Makes the Ride Worthwhile

Tomorrow marks my 4 year wedding anniversary. Part of me thinks, "Wow! Four Years!!" and another part of me thinks, "FOUR YEARS?! THAT'S IT?!!" It feels like forever..

But, please don't get me wrong. I don't mean forever in a bad way. I just mean, I feel like we have lived a lifetime in only 4 years.

When I think back now, I am amazed at how much better I know my husband now than I did then. Not that I didn't know him then.. I did. I knew him so well that I didn't think it was possible to know him any more. Let me clarify.. when I say "know" I mean "understand". While I believe that I understood my hubby as well as I possibly COULD have at the time.. in comparison to now.. it's like I barely knew him at all.

Am I making sense?

Let me try to say it this way.

My husband knows me so well, I think he knows me better than I know myself. All of my life I have written people notes and letters to tell them things I had trouble expressing in person. I've never done this with Hubby. At first, I thought maybe there was something missing with him.. and then I realized I had it all wrong.

Before Hubby left for Iraq the 2nd time.. I spent many days and several hours composing a goodbye letter to him in my head. But, I never wrote it. I never wrote it because I realized that Hubby didn't need my letter. Everything I wanted to say in the letter, he already knew. He probably knew it before I knew it. That's just the way it is with him.
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This is our 4th Wedding Anniversary, and in our 4 years together we have lived in 4 different states, been through 2 deployments (the 2nd has only just begun!), survived almost every natural disaster known to the US, and spent 2 of our 4 anniversaries apart. So, you can see why when I reflect back, I think, "FOUR YEARS, THAT'S ALL?!"

I can only begin to imagine what the NEXT four years will have in store for us.. and the next.. and the next. I can only imagine.. but I'm sure that the reality will be so much crazier and more amazing than anything I could possibly dream up on my own. I mean, four years ago as I met Hubby at the end of that aisle, do you think I had ANY idea what the next four years would have in store for us?

Of course not. I had no idea.

Which is why, I'm sure you can understand, I don't dare to dream or wonder... All I can do is buckle down, hold on tight, and see where the ride takes me.

Afterall, Love makes the ride worthwhile.